Hello again.
I am currently at Work Study, not working (because I have already done my tasks) and not studying (because reasons o3o).
1) I emailed Professor M my tentative book list for the BFA senior seminar, and he said it was good, but he would suggest me adding a craft book on fiction.
...
I have craft books on fiction on the list. Like, two or three of them. It makes me wonder, did he even read it? :/ (One of said craft books {that was on the list of recommended readings, no less} was available neither through Converse's library nor the public library's immediately available list. I had to place a hold at the public library to get it transferred here. It should arrive in about two weeks.) ><
2) Drs. T and K have not responded to me re: if I can get the discussion questions before class. ><
3) I... am quite hungry. At first, I thought, no I can make it to dinner, then I look at the time, and I'm like, HAHA NOPE. (All the nope.) So huzzahs for having a food bar in my backpack. (BUT NO HUZZAHS FOR STILL BEING HUNGRY ><)
4) About the refugee crisis whatnot - blargh. No huzzahs. >< (Mom said we wouldn't go to Germany because Dad is totally against it because of the refugees.) Also, when I was thinking about the Jan term trip to Berlin, I brought that whatnot up to Dr. T (the other Dr. T, head of the study abroad program) and she replied how the Department of State hadn't issued any warnings, and how Converse was not in the habit of putting her students in danger. (This was before the attacks in Paris. Speaking of which - the immature side of me thought, see! I/we told you so! But I didn't. {HUZZAH FOR SELF-CONTROL!} o3o) When I told my dad, he said something about how that would be good if we could trust the Department of State, but we can't because reasons (that he did say, but I can't remember). ><
5) My aunt is Catholic. I know that she came to that over the course of her life, and I know that she really wants me to become Catholic as well. Like, she posted something on my Facebook wall about how Millennials are turning to Catholicism. Butbutbut, ALAS. A-freaking-las. ><
6) I am going to end this on a bright not. WHITE CHOCOLATE MOCHA IS BACK AT THE CAMPUS STARBUCKS. Ptl. Thank you, Lord, for that spot of brightness.
Dear Lord,
I am sorry for all of the complaining I do. Seriously, es tut mir leid. :c
Thank you for everything you have blessed me with. Thank you that I am getting better, slowly but (kind of) surely.
Thank you that I have this Work Study job, that I am able to make money (every bit helps, haha). Please give me wisdom about how to spend it.
Please be with my parents. I know that they say these things because they care for me (I know that!), but still. Please give me the wisdom about how to respond if/when we get into disagreements.
(On that note, **** [you know what I mean].)
Please, please, please give me guidance about what the next step in my life will be. I've said it before, but I'll say it again. I may not know the future, but I have a personal relationship with the One who does. He knows what's going to happen. Please, Lord, grant me Your peace.
In Your Name, Lord,
Amen <3 p="">
Monday, February 22, 2016
Monday, February 15, 2016
February 15 - The Fall
So, today my college closed at 2:30 due to icy conditions. When I told my mom, she scoffed, then I said something along the lines of think of the commuters, or something.
But yeah, but yeah.
So (2.0), after dinner, I walked over to the library, but hey, look at that, the school is closed, hence the library is closed as well. So (3.0), I went to Starbucks, had a drink, then started to walk toward the library roundabouts 7-ish (because I had forgotten that it was closed).
Then (ALAS[-KA Dx]), on my way to the library, I slipped on a patch of ice, falling on my back. No, I was not injured (except for my pride), but, more importantly/also, nobody saw me.
Like, part of me is happy that no one saw my (literal) slip-up, but at the same time, I'm thinking, what if I had been injured? How long would it have taken someone to find me? (No huzzahs for that >:C)
Part of me (2.0) was going to make this into an existential post, hence the title "The Fall," and wanted to address how it is mankind's "fall" into sin that lets such bad things happen. Maybe another time. o3o
BUT PTL - I'M ALIVE.
(But, I'm still scared about stuff. For example, once I went down, I thought, oh gosh, did I hit my head? I don't want to have hit my head. I'm not sure, but I don't feel any different. (Also, I'm not exactly sure about the timeline with all that, hence feeding into my concern about my memory still. :/))
Bah. No huzzahs for all that. :c
Anywho, I need to do homework before tomorrow.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for keeping me safe today. Thanks a bunch.
ALL THE HUZZAHS TO YOU, LORD.
(Also, please keep me steady on my feet, so this doesn't happen again. Please. o3o)
<3 p="">Amen
But yeah, but yeah.
So (2.0), after dinner, I walked over to the library, but hey, look at that, the school is closed, hence the library is closed as well. So (3.0), I went to Starbucks, had a drink, then started to walk toward the library roundabouts 7-ish (because I had forgotten that it was closed).
Then (ALAS[-KA Dx]), on my way to the library, I slipped on a patch of ice, falling on my back. No, I was not injured (except for my pride), but, more importantly/also, nobody saw me.
Like, part of me is happy that no one saw my (literal) slip-up, but at the same time, I'm thinking, what if I had been injured? How long would it have taken someone to find me? (No huzzahs for that >:C)
Part of me (2.0) was going to make this into an existential post, hence the title "The Fall," and wanted to address how it is mankind's "fall" into sin that lets such bad things happen. Maybe another time. o3o
BUT PTL - I'M ALIVE.
(But, I'm still scared about stuff. For example, once I went down, I thought, oh gosh, did I hit my head? I don't want to have hit my head. I'm not sure, but I don't feel any different. (Also, I'm not exactly sure about the timeline with all that, hence feeding into my concern about my memory still. :/))
Bah. No huzzahs for all that. :c
Anywho, I need to do homework before tomorrow.
Dear Lord,
Thank you for keeping me safe today. Thanks a bunch.
ALL THE HUZZAHS TO YOU, LORD.
(Also, please keep me steady on my feet, so this doesn't happen again. Please. o3o)
<3 p="">Amen
Saturday, February 6, 2016
February 6 - Chelsea Clinton
Hello once more, o invisible reader.
Trigger warning / spoiler alert / etc - this is going to be a politically oriented blog post. Sorry not sorry. o3o
Today, at my college, Chelsea Clinton came to speak on behalf of her mother, Hillary Clinton.
(Side note - I googled both "Hillary Clinton" [to ascertain I spelled her name correctly] and "Hillary Clinton daughter" [to ascertain I spelled Chelsea's name correctly]. Apparently, Chelsea Clinton has a Wikipedia page about her. Wow, and I just saw her not half an hour ago.)
...
I know that I have opportunities most people do not have. For example, I am currently attending college. One of the topics Chelsea spoke about was how her mom wants to make college more affordable. Something about taxing higher income families ($250k+/year earners) more.
College is not a right. So, what with Bernie Sanders talking about free public college, I'm like, yeah, nope. o3o
My family makes (I believe) around $60k/year. (Though, technically, with the Germany property, it says something SIGNIFICANTLY higher on our tax returns, but we don't actually SEE any of that money [which is why I didn't qualify for federally funded work study, {though my school did hire me as a student worker}]). Even so, I don't think we need to tax wealthier people to pay for other people. The $250k+ people... that's their money. Like, it's THEIR money. THEIRS. Not mine, not yours, THEIRS.
(Did I make my point clear? o3o If the wealthy people want to give their money away, let them do it and HUZZAHS FOR THEM IF THEY DO. But, seriously, it's theirs. :/ )
So, while I wouldn't say no to lower tuition costs, if it literally cost other people for me to pursue something for my gain... that's not right imo.
But back to the more opportunities whatnot I mentioned before. I will be graduating without any debt, due to a combination of scholarships and a college fund from my grandfather. I know that many/most people do not have that opportunity. I promise you, I know that. (#blessed (?) )
Something that was also talked about was health care. Once more, I've been blessed to have TriCare Prime (though now it's TriCare Prime Young Adult until further notice [because we sent off the appeal form for me to stay on the family plan]). My father EARNED that, through his 20 years of service in the Navy.
Another topic discussed was a woman's right to choose.
I am pro-life. I (intellectually) understand/know that there are near countless reasons a woman would want an abortion (rape, incest, not being ready, umsw). A while ago, I saw a Buzzfeed post about women "Shouting [their] abortion," about them celebrating the fact that they had one and refusing to be shamed about it anymore. One woman said something about how in [year] she had an abortion because she wasn't ready to be a mother and now she is able to be a better mother to her other kids.
My mother has a story that I'm not going to share on here (because it's her story, not mine), but she is SUPER pro-life as well. She has also said something along the lines of, if you don't want / can't take care of / etc your child, give him/her up for adoption. There are people out there who would LOVE to have a child, but can't. (Idk anything about the stats re: that, so... yeah.)
Maybe I'm old-fashioned (no, I'm definitely old-fashioned compared to some of the women here, eek. :x)
---
Honestly, I just want to tune all of this out, stick my fingers in my ears and go "LALALALA." It's so hard to be around so many other people with (radically!) different viewpoints. When Chelsea spoke of Republicans, it wasn't mean/snide/etc, but it was negative. (Like, if a Republican gets elected, we'll lose all the progress we've made over the past eight years.)
ALSO, THAT'S ANOTHER THING. When Chelsea spoke about progressives, she spoke about the progressive movement as a positive thing. Honestly, that is probably the first time I've heard progressives being a positive entity. My parents are super conservative, and I am less so, but still conservative. If I went home tomorrow and said that I'm now a progressive, they might have heart attacks, lol (but not lol o3o).
As my friend B says, BAH. (And as my keyboard types, ><).
Dear Lord,
Thank You for everything You have blessed me with. Seriously, thanks a million and a half (which rounds up to a million and one o3o).
Please give me peace. Please give me wisdom, wisdom with... everything.
Please give me the words to say if/when I engage in dialogue with others (especially in Religion and Public Life).
PLEASE give me peace about post-grad.
(Also, please give me the words to say when I talk to my parents about the summer mission trip opportunities.)
In Your name, Lord,
Amen <3 p="">
Trigger warning / spoiler alert / etc - this is going to be a politically oriented blog post. Sorry not sorry. o3o
Today, at my college, Chelsea Clinton came to speak on behalf of her mother, Hillary Clinton.
(Side note - I googled both "Hillary Clinton" [to ascertain I spelled her name correctly] and "Hillary Clinton daughter" [to ascertain I spelled Chelsea's name correctly]. Apparently, Chelsea Clinton has a Wikipedia page about her. Wow, and I just saw her not half an hour ago.)
...
I know that I have opportunities most people do not have. For example, I am currently attending college. One of the topics Chelsea spoke about was how her mom wants to make college more affordable. Something about taxing higher income families ($250k+/year earners) more.
College is not a right. So, what with Bernie Sanders talking about free public college, I'm like, yeah, nope. o3o
My family makes (I believe) around $60k/year. (Though, technically, with the Germany property, it says something SIGNIFICANTLY higher on our tax returns, but we don't actually SEE any of that money [which is why I didn't qualify for federally funded work study, {though my school did hire me as a student worker}]). Even so, I don't think we need to tax wealthier people to pay for other people. The $250k+ people... that's their money. Like, it's THEIR money. THEIRS. Not mine, not yours, THEIRS.
(Did I make my point clear? o3o If the wealthy people want to give their money away, let them do it and HUZZAHS FOR THEM IF THEY DO. But, seriously, it's theirs. :/ )
So, while I wouldn't say no to lower tuition costs, if it literally cost other people for me to pursue something for my gain... that's not right imo.
But back to the more opportunities whatnot I mentioned before. I will be graduating without any debt, due to a combination of scholarships and a college fund from my grandfather. I know that many/most people do not have that opportunity. I promise you, I know that. (#blessed (?) )
Something that was also talked about was health care. Once more, I've been blessed to have TriCare Prime (though now it's TriCare Prime Young Adult until further notice [because we sent off the appeal form for me to stay on the family plan]). My father EARNED that, through his 20 years of service in the Navy.
Another topic discussed was a woman's right to choose.
I am pro-life. I (intellectually) understand/know that there are near countless reasons a woman would want an abortion (rape, incest, not being ready, umsw). A while ago, I saw a Buzzfeed post about women "Shouting [their] abortion," about them celebrating the fact that they had one and refusing to be shamed about it anymore. One woman said something about how in [year] she had an abortion because she wasn't ready to be a mother and now she is able to be a better mother to her other kids.
My mother has a story that I'm not going to share on here (because it's her story, not mine), but she is SUPER pro-life as well. She has also said something along the lines of, if you don't want / can't take care of / etc your child, give him/her up for adoption. There are people out there who would LOVE to have a child, but can't. (Idk anything about the stats re: that, so... yeah.)
Maybe I'm old-fashioned (no, I'm definitely old-fashioned compared to some of the women here, eek. :x)
---
Honestly, I just want to tune all of this out, stick my fingers in my ears and go "LALALALA." It's so hard to be around so many other people with (radically!) different viewpoints. When Chelsea spoke of Republicans, it wasn't mean/snide/etc, but it was negative. (Like, if a Republican gets elected, we'll lose all the progress we've made over the past eight years.)
ALSO, THAT'S ANOTHER THING. When Chelsea spoke about progressives, she spoke about the progressive movement as a positive thing. Honestly, that is probably the first time I've heard progressives being a positive entity. My parents are super conservative, and I am less so, but still conservative. If I went home tomorrow and said that I'm now a progressive, they might have heart attacks, lol (but not lol o3o).
As my friend B says, BAH. (And as my keyboard types, ><).
Dear Lord,
Thank You for everything You have blessed me with. Seriously, thanks a million and a half (which rounds up to a million and one o3o).
Please give me peace. Please give me wisdom, wisdom with... everything.
Please give me the words to say if/when I engage in dialogue with others (especially in Religion and Public Life).
PLEASE give me peace about post-grad.
(Also, please give me the words to say when I talk to my parents about the summer mission trip opportunities.)
In Your name, Lord,
Amen <3 p="">
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