March 18 - Boost :)

Hey there.

Let's see, today's news...

I went to the psychologist on campus. Huzzah for that.

I did not go to Work Study, because I'm not scheduled for today.

I presented with my group yesterday. I think we did well. Huzzah for that.

I did not get accepted to a (paid) internship I applied for. I was turned down, kindly, but I was still turned down. (However, I wasn't sure I would have accepted it if I had received it. *shrug*)

I did NOT go to the gym. Instead, I walked around campus three times. First time around, I saw M (a freshman who attends the Bible group I am the president of) and M's parents. I am happy to say that I remembered her name. (She waved at me first, but due to eye whatnots, I wasn't quite able to see who it was, but I waved back nonetheless.)

The second time I ran into my apartment mate, Z, the one who I have had issues with in the past. Everything went fine, though. :)

The third time, I went rogue and went along the outside of campus. (I exited through the main entrance and walked on the sidewalk next to the road back to the senior apartment parking lot.) At first, as I was approaching the entrance, I considered crossing the street to walk in the neighborhood there, but decided against it, because no one would know I was there, and I haven't walked there alone before. I'm not 100% sure if that was me being a 'fraidy cat, or me being smart (psst - smart backwards is trams o3o). I think/know I made the right decision though.

Alsoalsoalso, as I was walking, a car honked at me as it passed from behind. I was securely on the pavement, out of traffic, so I know he/she wasn't honking at me to get out of the way. Alsoalsoalso, I was wearing exercise shorts, so my legs were showing. Alsoalsoalso, one time when R was here (my adopted big), we had a similar experience. She explained then that the person was honking at the pretty ladies. So, even though I do not condone such behavior, and I doubt he (because I'm assuming the driver was a male) would not have reacted that way had he seen my face, the front of my legs, etc, I... am still going to take it as a compliment.

Alsoalsoalsoalso, I'm happy I did that. That... is the first time in a long time I have exercised. So huzzahs for that. :)

TODO this weekend -
1) German response for "Metropolis"
2) German midterm
3) Revise my critical intro for BFA senior sem because I don't believe I will be including all of the pieces I wrote about in my first critical intro. o3o

And other whatnots.

Dear Lord,

Thank You for this day. Thank You for all the blessings I have received, that You have seen fit to give me. Thank You for the blessing that is exercise, for the endorphins I/we receive from it. Please help me continue to find time for that, haha.

Please help me finish this semester strong.

/huzzah

Amen <3 p="">

March 11 - Memory

I titled this blog post "Memory" because of many reasons.

I went to see "The Little Mermaid," put on by my old high school (through which this blog first came to be, ha). D invited me.

D graduated high school a year after me, but due to the medical whatnots, we are graduating college at the same time.

It was SO WEIRD.

A) Mr. T (lol xD) was not there. (He had been the drama person when I went.) Instead, Mrs. R was listed as the director. When I went there, she was just the middle school director/overseer person.

B) Most of the people I knew have already graduated from there. So, the only person on stage I recognized was the girl who played Ursula. She had been in Beauty and the Beast as a teacup, or something. She was acting like the next Nicole or somethin'. (And my GOODNESS BREASTS @.@ [Not that I was focusing on them, but I could not help but notice them, because, back when I knew her when she was a fifth grader, no breasts. o3o])

C) Several of the boys, er... MEN that I knew from school when they were middle schoolers have graduated as well, and have BEARDS. @.@

D) D invited me. We went in celebration of D's sister's birthday (20, I believe). So it was me, D, D's sister, and D's mother. We were in the college auditorium, near the back. Nearby was a young child who kept crying and whose mother kept shushing. I believe, at one point, D and/or D's mother said something to the effect of, I sure wish they would keep their child quiet. Honestly, it bugged me too, but it bugged me more that they actually said something.

(NO, YOU ARE NOT THE POLICEMAN/WOMAN OF THE WORLD, JENNIFER. STOP THAT. ><)

E) I... meant to give back the playbill, as requested, so they could pass it out again tomorrow, but, when I went to the bathroom während intermission, I placed it on the table in the bathroom. I remembered later, however, but once I went back after the play was over, it wasn't there. o3o (SORRY OAKBROOK.)

F) I meant to do my German film reflection tonight, but after the play and showering, I tried, but I am much, much too tired to work on that anymore tonight. Bah. ><

G) I have a group project due this Thursday. We are presenting that day. I also have a date with Brandy tomorrow to binge watch Star Wars. Huzzahs for that.

H) (Back to the negative). Watching this musical made me jealous. I was jealous of a bunch of high schoolers. No huzzahs. :c
(Not just the high schoolers, though. D let me know that B [a mutual friend from high school] is now engaged. I'm thinking to myself, wow, another one? And I haven't yet really dated [but whose fault is that Jennifer? {Silence, self, stop that ><} o3o]).

I) I... just wanted to say...

J) J IS THE FIRST LETTER OF MY NAME.

(Yup o3o)

Dear Lord,

Thank You for this day. Thank You for everything You have given me. Thank You so, so much.
Please Lord, give me peace about the future, about the past, about everything that has happened/will happen to me.

Please give me what I need to finish these assignments on time. Please bless the time I spend on homework so I spend it wisely, productively.

Please heal the hurt I hold in my heart. Please rid me of this envy, because it's not from You, Lord, I know that.

I know I've written it before on Facebook - I may not know the future, but I know the One who does, and that's good enough for me. Please, Lord, I believe it with my head, but please give me the whatever enough to believe it with my heart as well.

In Your Name, Lord,
Amen <3 p="">